HAIM – If I Could Change Your Mind

I miss 80′s music.

They’re sisters who know what they like.

Give them a listen :)

Cheating

Nothing seems to be more influential in the negative course of a relationship that cheating.  What’s even more surprising is how it affects FUTURE relationships. For instance, in my last relationship we broke up because of a lack of trust. There was no mutual trust because she had been cheated on in the past and assumed that I would do the same to her. I still can’t get over the ramifications that cheating has caused.

Are you a fool for taking back someone who cheated on you? “Once a cheater, always a cheater,” may ring true, but carrying that mentality into new relationships is detrimental. It’s horrible to think that the people you will get involved with will likely cheat on you. Being cheated on is a terrible thing to experience, but to assume it’ll happen again, you ultimately cheat yourself. 

Update

So It’s been a nice long while since my last post. Sorry about that, life gets interesting/busy that it’s hard to find time to write. So let’s see… where to start. To close out the year, 2013, I was dating a couple girls. Neither turned into a relationship, but I did gain a nice friend out of one of them. It was probably not for the best anyways. The girl who turned into a friend, I started dating her because she looked A LOT like my ex. I know I know, that’s poor form on my part, however I don’t regret meeting her because she turned out to be a great person, we just didn’t have any lasting chemistry and remain friendly towards each other. I’m starting to think that I don’t want to get into a relationship. They’re so much of hassle to start and even harder to remain flourishing. I think it would be easier to just get involved with a friend. There’s that already established likeness towards each other which eliminates the hassle of starting over with someone brand new. The main problem with this idea, i don’t think I have a friend whom I would get involved with.

To start off 2014, I bought a new car! I finally got that Volkswagen GLI I wanted. It’s a 2012 model, meaning used, but it was a demo car so extremely low miles! My dad and I negotiated a real nice deal so I signed off and drove it home! My father is the man at haggling. He’s one of those Asians that’ll haggle the price of Mcdonald’s if given the opportunity. Image

 

I started making plans for EDC 2014! Whoo I’m excited. A lot of my friends whom I’m going with are saying this’ll be their last year. Kind of sad, but I understand. I know that if I were to get involved with someone, convincing them to go to EDC would be difficult. EDM still isn’t that popular with people my age. People my age….that’s how you make yourself sound old. Speaking of age, I turned 30 this past February!

So what does any grown 30 year old do for their birthday, throw a costume karaoke party of course!  Had a great time with family and friends as always. I recycled my Tony the Tiger costume once more and was a Morse Tiger (a local high school mascot).

 

That’s it for now. Hanging with some friends in LA. Later everyone!

Poetry In Motion

You take my breath away. 

The way you hug is filled with passion and intensity.

Your curves are perfect, seemingly engineered to strike definite emotion in me.

When I’m inside you, we fit so well. I’m the key to your lock.

Drip drip drop, when it’s wet I’m afraid to lose control, but you hold me in place and guide me through.

 

Together I feel like we could fly off into outer space. 

There are others who may have some of your qualities, but none can encompass all of what you are.

You mean the world to me. Without you I don’t know how I’d get around.

 

The one day after work, I was looking for you.

You were nowhere to be found. I began to worry.

Did someone steal your heart? Did someone claim you for themselves?

I even called the police to help me look. I got a call.

 

Someone did take you from me. 

Someone was envious of what we had and wanted you for themselves.

They came into our home and kidnapped you.

They stripped you naked and after they were done with you, left you to die.

 

I’ll never forget my first car…

Perspective

The water begins to bead off the glass under the warm summer night. I look across at her as she swipes the hair from her face. Her cheeks glisten in the moonlight as the strap from her dress slinks ever so slowly off her shoulder. She inches closer to me and whispers something sweet into my ear. All I could make were the words, “I can…yes…would you loosen my belt?” I couldn’t have picked a worse time to submit to alcohol. 

I shake it off and now everything begins to focus. The rain has finally stopped and I realize the car is upside down. Her cheeks are shiny from the blood spilling from her temple. She’s actually groaning, “I can’t undo my seat belt.” A man yells from outside the car, she replies, “Yes! We’re stuck and need help! Drew can you loosen your belt? HELP!”  

I can smell smoke and it begins to fill the inside of the car. It catches fire and the people that were trying to reach for us have now backed away. All I can see is her face as she begins to cry. I hold her hand and say, “I’m sorry. I love you.” She says “I love you too.”

Kickstarter and Depression

So I backed my very first Kickstarter! No it’s not on the development of a video game. No it’s not on helping a band release an album. It’s about how I can help friends make a concept turn into reality.

Chuck is a film about depression and how one man deals with it. It’s semi-autobiographical in nature as the inspiration comes from the director’s own personal hardships. Off The Boat Productions is the company asking for your help in making this film a reality and its Owner, Vanessa Augustin, and Director, Julius DelaCruz, are very close friends of mine. I’ve known them for several years and from what little I’ve seen of them do separately, Chuck can only be excellent with them together. Even the actor who plays Chuck, Brian Collins, is a close friend as well. I’ve seen him perform at a few local theater productions and he’s really good. This’ll be a unique one as he’s not to have any spoken lines in Chuck. 

Depression is something that all of us have gone through, but what I find interesting is that when we’re all going through a bout with depression, we feel isolated and alone. As if no one has ever dealt with depression before us. Sometimes we can call out to others when we need help getting out, other times we bury it deep within us hoping that no one else can see this embarrassing emotion. In my lowest points with depression, there are thoughts, thoughts that the normal me would be appalled at. I don’t ever want to go back down that rabbit hole again and I wish no one else would either. Sometimes just asking “how are you” is enough to bring a person back from the brink. Next time you see someone, ask them, “how are you?” might just end up saving them.

I hope you can spare the time and take a look at their Kickstarter and if inclined, show them some love by donating to this great project!

Doodle Art

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